What Takes More Faith

It has been a year and a half since lyme entered our daily vocabulary.  My husband, my daughters and I all now have experienced the joy of finally having an answer and the fear associated with the difficulty of treatment.  God has been faithful to us, and we are all using this time to grow spiritually.  We try to focus on the amazing blessings we have experienced and be thankful even in the midst of struggle.  

We are all improving, but at different rates.  This journey is long and even when well there is always the risk of relapse.  It's easy to focus on the financial burden this disease has placed on us, but God has given me numerous reminders that there are many more people in our community who are just as sick and unable to even begin the steps to diagnosis due to the financial cost.  It is absolutely, nothing short of miraculous that we have been able to continue to pay for treatment.  

Here we are, in January, the hardest time of year for our family financially.  I have been praying all this past summer and fall about how we would continue to function once we hit this difficult time of year.  I've been seriously hoping that I would be able to return to work part time this month, but here we are and I am not feeling ready to return to work, even part time.

We had been hoping to go into January caught up in our 2014 expenses.  Unfortunately, this chimney season wasn't what it usually was.  Because of this, we have some serious bills hanging over our heads.  I fully trust God to supply our needs, but the question I'm not sure the answer to is this: Should I continue to wait and rest and trust God to miraculously take care of our needs, or should I take the step, in faith, and attempt working part time, trusting God to supply the energy and strength I need.  I don't know the answer.

It's funny, how things work out.  Scott was provided with the perfect job a few weeks ago, and he also got a handful of chimney calls last week.  I thought this was the answer.  Then, Scott develops a severe health issue and not only did it cost a lot of money out of pocket, but it severely affected his ability to work.  This current health crisis will soon pass, but I'm still left with the question of HOW God wants me to show my faith.  

Here is my prayer, or test:

This week I am going to attempt to get up everyday as though I was going to work.  I am going to see how well I function.  I am going to be in prayer that one of two things happen, either I am able to have the strength to function or we will be provided needed fiances through another venue.  (God seems to like to provide chimney jobs when we are in financial need.)  I am hoping, praying, that I can be given some clear direction.